[[++ONE woRD++]]]__________::: {[( NP )]}

gone are the days of tomorrow and we settle on what is here today

2005-06-16T17:48:00.000-07:00

WELL HELLO. =D. AND GOODBYE.
link me up here.

IM GONE, SO THERE

2005-06-16T02:02:00.001-07:00

HELLO MY DEARIES. IM GONE. SO, GOODBYE.
LINK ME UP AT

IM GONE, SO THERE

2005-06-16T02:02:00.000-07:00

HELLO MY DEARIES. IM GONE. SO, GOODBYE.
LINK ME UP AT

2G3!!!

2005-04-03T18:29:00.000-07:00

ATTENTION 2G3! KLICK HERE AHH!

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Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!

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2005-04-01T05:10:00.000-08:00

i guess it doesnt pay to put up lives for sale.

anyway, recap

THIS IS FOR JESSICA. CAUSE SHE ASKED FOR IT AND SHE BOUGHT ME BANDS[ THEY ARE TRENDS, SO YOU SEE]. and cus i forgot and im doing it now :) here we go:

i went to tiong with theresa and jess ON THE ___OF MARCH 2005 RIGHT BEFRE '__KIN NP. because theresa had to buy some stuff for her darliinnnn brooo. yes. and jessica bot me early burfdare prezents.. hahahha. and i hugged her in ice lemon tea (((: hahah and theresa bot us chicken fingers[ so she didnt. SHE GOT THEM FOR FREE AHH] [okay, i was distracted for a while ahh] anyway, i later bot myself browiniessss and FAT-FREE [RIGHT] ice cream. dey werre good ahh :))) and jess was trying hard to memorise drills. HAHH funnt and we gt throug it * applauds jess*

yes. thats about it

and on friday i was talking old black. STARE AT US LA. I BET YOULL BE CALLING THE KKK NEXT.

WHY ARE THEY WEARING PINK MOMMA?
CUS THEYRE GAY HONEY.

HAHAHAHHAHAHHAH. BAH. OKAY. that went out to wan mei

alrite.im going to make blogskins nowww....yayy ahh

your sins to me oh my beautiful one

gahhhhhhh

2005-03-27T00:58:00.000-08:00

these few days have been interesting :)).
OH YES THEY HAVE

on friday visited both my grandads and paternal granny and great granny and great granpa ((: THE LOCAL CEMETERY FOR YOU UNEDUCATED FREAKS.

I AM NEVER GOING TO THE MARKET WITH MY GRANNY AGAIN (THE ALIVE ONE AHH) [nuff said]

on saturday i went out with HANI SYIKIN AND HUMAIRAHHH!!! YAYYYYY!!!! lets yak on and on and on and on about it [THERES NO WORD LIMIT WOOHOOOO]] anyway, left home at abt 12 ta meet hani and plaza [as in the one in bt panjang] den headed for cck cus hani wanted to top up her card. oh yahh, to the woman in the booth : DAMN YOU WOMAN WHEN HANI WANTS TWO DOLLARS IN HER CARD SHE GETS 2 DOLLARS IN HER CARD!!!haha
hehh and den we walked ard lot one trying to waste 45 mins. :)) unsucessfully.*sigh* in the end we went off ((:

we were bored to death at bugis so while waiting i blew my money on a 3.30 dollars mushroom quiche [i am glad i bought it anyway] and hani on her old chang kee X)

after many many pics, humairah came ((: then we waited some more while she took sadako-ish pics of herself EE CREEPY AHH. (check out the pics on the link aboveeee)

and then FINALLY syikin came and we were off. according to my digicam, our trusty tour guide humairah showed us the way to the neo booth 1st :)) and we took 2 neo booths ((: and wasted all together 7 bux HAHH. anyway, we had fun ahh and the stupid timer wasnt working!! *sticks tongue out* or was it because it was spsed to be liddat? =/

ANYWAY, we then ventured on further, and to the model showw!! EH HAWT AHH. HUMAIRAH DON YOU DARE STEAL THE ONE IN THE GREEN TEESHIRT HE HOT ARHHH AND MINE!!

den my digicam ran out of battery, one of a photographers worst nightmare, I KNOW, and ran to watsons. ooh good deals :) 3.95 for 12 and i still have 8 left. [i kinda fingured out the last bit of info wasnt needed by i added it in anyway :))]

TO KINOKUNIYA WE GO! cus hani needed to check something out for our lee bu ne ne XD

we passed by a bridal shoppe and who else could be more interested than our darlin irah?

AND DEN I PLAYED WITH FOUNTAINS!! okay, so i didnt play with it, i just played with teh pics hahh. BUT I WANTED TO *pouts*

kfc was our next stop :)) to eat duh. and the auntie din want to take pictures with me . HOW SAD. not that i asked anyway. HAHH.

UPON MY INSISTENCE, we went to cold storage. NOPE, not to buy chocs, but to source out for inspiration ahhh (((: hahahha. and we had fun dammit lotsa funn (((: HAHAHAHAH I STILL CANT STOP LAFFING AT THE SYIKIN WITH THE MOP PIC. the prob is, we cant see her. *falls off chair laughing*

and FINALLY, we go our seperate ways after much photos and hugging and cursing of the facilitators. HAPPY BURFDAE LUTFI!!!

AND TODAY,,,, i went to the cemetery again :) , after that to the wtc [NO, not the one osama hit with his bloody hijacked plane] to send off my fav indonesian aunt [eh, no, 3rd fav. my 1st will always be tante dewi followed buy tante henny :)], tante ruby.
AND DID YOU KNOW I AM RELATED TO THE EX-PRESIDENT OF INDONESIA THE DARLINN MEGAWATI??! WOOOHOOOOOO HAHHAAHHA. cus her husband is like tante rubys brother and tante ruby is my mommy cousin so THAT MAKES MEGAWATI MY AUNTIEEEEE HAHAHAHAHA ((((: ooh imagine the trouble i can get out of when im in indonesia ((:

IT IS OFFICIAL! I AM NOW AFFILIATED TO MY DIGICAM AND uhh acsent yeahh

tata darlingss ((:

eh melayu ah

2005-03-22T02:04:00.000-08:00

i shall attempt to write this entire post in malay. ooh.fun :D

hari ini kelakarr arhh. habis skola pkl 2 setengah pastu balik dgn prithika dan kawannya darshana :). sebelum tu pagi tadi ade koleksi untuk walkathon (dalam bahasa melayu ape arh?). tak kumpul duit arh. biase. yang kelakarrnye, G3 ialah salah satu kelas ynag mengumpulkan jumlah yang terbanyak. macam mane jadi camtu pun tak tahula. mesti xinliang/gutong punye kerje ah. pastu ade sastera. dalam kumpulan iezah arhh. :) budak ni kyuteeee SIA. sayang aku:D main dgn dawai. cikgu tricia goh seorang guru yang BAGOOS. :) jari2 aku berdarah krana terkene dawai :) tapi takpe laa. yg sedihnya ialah org2 pikir dawai aku yg aku susah2 shape kann tu orang kayu (ehhh betul tak[stick man]) SEDIH TAUUU

ehhh cannot make it la... and YES I USED A ENGLISH-MALAY TRANSLATOR XD....

my malay really karattttt hahahhaahhaha

sadly, i cant go as goth girl with yaneyyy:((((THIS IS THE SADDEST THING OF THE ENTIRE WEEK :(...

kay noww, tata hafta finish homec

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2005-03-17T22:53:00.000-08:00

omygosh i just realised how i missed syikin. catching up with her is PURE FUN AND TORTURE DAMMIT. hahhaa love her loads. and ive found out her lil'secret!!! hahahah. it shall be my secret weapon from now on. (((:. hahahha. watch out sykin, HERE COMES IFFAH R. EVIL!! :)))). hahah my syikin makes me laugh alot :). and i was literally laughing :)))

yes darlin, we shall steal away his skateboard. you take his i take asyrafs. hahahahahha.

okay. shut up iffah

to the girl in the mrt: YOU ARE BLESSED MY CHILD. YOU HAVE GREAT CHUCKS

hahah. the guy frm the back blocks dark :). but somehow hes HOT LA. :) aawwwwww. hes gt a girlfriend. no, she doesnt deserve him . I DO I DO I DO. and he likes casualties :). ooh vintage.
his chucks are nice arhh. BAH. sadly, hes just a trend follower i guess.

sadness.

syikin you cow, i LOVE YOU , dammit :))))

caffeine free and no whipped cream

2005-03-13T20:13:00.000-08:00

did not go to school today. no, its not cause i dont love maRRRRRRRRiaaaa animore. it was cause i was SICK. IRONIC ISNT IT. here i am blogging haha.

ooh. 38.5 degrees. good good. and mom was like asking me to help her make kueh. hello? sick? cannot move? but i helped anyway. :)

i shall see if i want to go to school tmr onot. =/. phammiee bringing the class out. i wonder to where. prolly a bowling alley or something. haha. BOLA GOLEK. hahahaahaha. okay, shut up iffah

yaye. tagboards working. FINALLY. :D

on thursday, me, nisz, prithika and syira stayed back to laugh our heads off. was fun. and syira had fun fuckin me. RIGHT SYIRA? AND SCARING ME AND NISZ. AND TELLIN US FREAKY GHOST STORIES. awwwww, syira had all the fun. :(. no fair.

went home at abt 3.45. hahaha. THERE WAS NO NP. :)

on friday was service day.
lydia maam :))))
jenem and jun jun

im still wondering how a block can only have 100 units. =/ i was convinced there was more

ive gt gigs to fill up a whole week. the prob is, i dont have de permission to fill up a whole week.

BEG, IFFAH, BEG

we used to leave the blue lights on and there was a beat
evr since you had been gone, it was caffeine free
faux punk fatigue

i start walking on my own

2005-03-09T04:12:00.000-08:00

tell me something i dont noe.
outcasts are now my thing. i guess everything has to come to an end somehow.

daddy, i noe ure mad at me but im sry for anything tt i did but i didnt noe. im sry if i hurt your feelings without realising it. i know you love my brothers more den me. i noe cus you show it. and you hate me. you said it before and i dont want to hear it again cus it hurts and i know. im sry if didnt become a good enough daughter for you. im sry you had to turn biased. im sry i didnt share everything with you. im sry i came into your life. i noe you wished i nvr had now. im sry i stepped on you and walked all over. i guess dis seems to be my retribution. i still dunno de reason y youre ignoring me. but irony, you say you love me every year. and want me to grow up to be a good girl, scoring good results and to take care of syaqif and rabani and mommy. but you hate me. every one day of the year where you make me cry. can de daddy i noe come back? i just want to know what i did wrong and tell me if you need space. ill give you space. ill give you anything if youd just be my daddy. even for a day. love you, dad.

people change. one day deyre nice to you and den de next deyre ignoring you and you start to wonder why. my daddy doesnt read blogs. i bet he doesnt noe wad blogs are in de 1st place. so dis seems better than a diary.

i like blogs

i noe youre trying to change things - dead disco[metric]

seeing red hurts sometimes

2005-03-05T18:28:00.000-08:00

yayy. im back. by popular demand. ryte. okay

yes i havent been updating. for a reason anyway. nps taking over my life so time just flew out of my dictionary. lifes weird in that way. sometimes t just takes away de most common words in your life and den de next thing you noe you haven heard of it. =/ ooh emo emo

kayy shall recap on tkd yest.
came 0.72654235920573298754 milli seconds late. =///////haha. anyway, we did sparring. :D. somehow it seemed less painfuil yest den a couple of weeks before.
i gt home and edlyn told me deres xtra training today. YES I NOE, LIKE DE WHOLE WORLD CAN MAKE IT TO TAEKWONDO ON A SUNDAY. GOOD PLANNING SIR. HAHA AND DONT YOU NEED TO GO OUT WITH YOUR GIRLFRIEND OR SOMETING??? HAHAHAHAHA. OKAY. SLAP ME

chatted with my darlin nut/cashew/hazel/may/whatever she decides to call herself. hahah funnehhh

im tired of blogging already. maybe i shld abandon my blog. =/ i changed de skin btw. the script error thing keeps popping up everytime i enter IT ANNOYS ME. =/=/=/=/

I ~~love~~ perfect 10
hahaha

AND THIS IS FR THERESA: SHES BEEN ASKING FOR IT

THERESA MAKES A GOOD PILLOW.
DERE.
HAPPY DARLIN?

HAHAHA

i love tkd dammit and im not going to quit just because you asked me to. IM NOT YOU HYPOCRITE.

anyway, i like my common test results

and ms phamm says untrue stuff abt me. NONE OF IT IS TRUE MOM. OKAY, MAYBE THE DUNNO HOW TO ANSWER PART IS ACCEPTABLE BUT OTHER THAN THAT NONE OF IT IS TRUE. DAMMIT. =/

im tired of trying

2005-02-25T01:40:00.000-08:00

hello. im back after so many years.
i shall update on stuff

i lead a boring life. literally.
and i cant get anything out of it

awrite, lets go to monday :))))

had 3 papers. damn. i didnt really study 4 geog and homec and lit. damn.
de next day had de last 2 papers. me yaney and nisz went to plaza sing. LOWLIFERS UNITE. LONG JOHN SILVERS IS MY FAVOURITE PLACE NOW. ANYBODY CRAVING FOR BREADED FISH? AND I MEAN THE PLAZA SINGAPURA OUTLET .

haha okay. b4 dat we were cringing at von dutch. EEE. dere are assorted colours. ooh. SURPRISE. I TOT DEY ONLY SOLD BLACK ONES FOR PUNK WANNABES. DAMMIT

wednesday. homec. oooh. love it. i love my cupcakes. but i brot it home and no one ate it . sadness.

thursday. npcc. im better off dead den. *sighs*

today. tired. went to plaza with yuki and yaney to find DORCAS. hahaha . shes lucky she wasnt dere. **n* likes *a**. oh gawd. creeps. met up with zk at banquet to do lyrics. haha. was dead tired after dat. brain overwork arh... hahah. okay.still have to do maths

tomorrow. its going to be damn tiring. so i better sleep now. i shall see sir tmr. aiyahhhhhh :(

CANT YOU TELL ITS YOU?

i want to see you use your capability, build me an ocean and destroy it with your eyes

2005-02-19T19:41:00.000-08:00

Air drummers are super cute… wait. AIR DRUMMERS WITH HIGH SOCKS AND CHUCKS ARE BLARDY CUTE. WAIT. GUY AIR DRUMMERS WITH HIGH SOCKS AND CHUCKS ARE SOOO DAMN CUTE. Ha-ha. Yaney’s capitals are damn infectious. I’m at my granny’s house, with NOFX blasting in my ear. My mom chucked me here with my tablet and drove off to the bank. AND SHE WONT BE FETCHING ME UNTIL LATE. So I’m stuck with my bros. PRAISE THE LORD.

Downloaded tons of songs :):) I love Warez. IVE GOT A BAD FEELING ABOUT THIS. And now I'm becoming addicted to the used. So nice please: D.

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After ct went to meridian with Erza, Wani and Hanisah. :D. So fun shall go there more often to buy stuff. Bought hp chain 4 wan and Yan:):):):). Spent a lot of money. Maria was nice that day. I wonder why. Walked the whole stretch of corridors. A lot of NICE VON DUTCH BAGS (SLAP ME). And Emily strange bags. I WANT ONE. HINTS. I REALLY WANT ONE:):):). *as in the Emily strange bags (well, duh)*A lot of vintage bags also (YANEY DIS IS FOR YOU). I like that place. And I shall go there more often once I'm bored with Far East and Plaza singapura. Transport is good. HAHA. I SOUND LIKE A TOURIST GUIDE BOOK. Okay, shut up.

If anybody is wondering why everything is punctuated the way it should be is because that I’m using Microsoft Word and to type everything in and then paste it in Blogger. Why? BECAUSE MY BLEEDING TABLET DOES NOT WANT TO GO TO BLOGGER. Trust me, hitting it will only make it worse. I’ve tried it before and I paid the price.

It’s sad to say, but I think that new found glory just seems to be another simple plan. =\ =/

peke~

2005-02-05T16:09:00.000-08:00

awrite its beeen a blardy long tyme since ive updated dis thing cus i dun fee like blogging animore. so 4 dose who have been waiting 4 me to update, here it is:-

yeaapp, on de 5th went "moshing" with yaniee:))))
learnt ALOTLOTLOT of things den:-
-ull regret if you chicken out on a mosh pit with a gd line-up
-and i mean reaally regret
-rreallly REALLLY regret
- until someone tells u de ceiling broke
- den ull stop regreting
-once walking away, it is best to indulge in heavy listening
- never wear BLACK wen u plan to walk away
-trade ure chucks for something else
- it will be good if you didn wear a studbelt
-try to avoid stares frm other moshers
-look out for pple like you ( kudos to fedora guyy, his chicken pie fren and de guyy in de bus!!!)
-think of plans to go as farr away frm de mosh pit as possible (TBP, suntec, taekwondo)

my 1st mosh pit n i chickened out.. whoopee...

new things learnt in TKD:-

-sparring
-jian ye makes a gd big bro(syira lee, lee cynthia.....)
-ivansir was a staffsgt in ncc n is VERY proud of it =/
-bennysirs gf looks cute in specs XD
-maams have a uber prob with us
-punishment 4 being late is 2 rounds ard de hall and 10 pushups
-shuhui looks uber chio in contacts
-syira DOESNT CARE (say loudly)
-the body armour must be inspired by turtles
-our ncos are very unpredictable pple
-dere are many kinds of shouts [ES!AIK!aiYAH!(bwahaahaha) ERRGS!!! (i like dis one cus its de onie one i can do :D) etcetc]
-pple who spar with jian ye get frustrated/ hurt easily
-you start to hate coke wen it goes up ure nose
-syiras auntie lives in cck
-you can see de same person in a day twice
- lee actually means *ahem*
-ivansir is a gd sir:)))))

lalalalalalalalalalala.....awrite....you can slap me noww but i love my bloggskin jus dun like the song arhhhh...

screwed up and still screwing

2005-01-27T21:22:00.000-08:00

i didn noe i was nvr good enuff for you. i tot i was. after all, eu took care of me. i tot u'd eb proudwith everything i did. but u didn and always compared me with someone better. i tried my best to be good, to show you that i could be every inch of dat someone who was better than me. i worked hard and den wen i got it u didn say anything. but when others got it, dey were good, so clever or whatever. jus because im de oldest doesn mean i dun need attention at all. doesn mean i dun want to get praises. i worked hard and did everything you asked me to but youll alwasy find someone better. someone who started talking earlier than me, someone who who could sang the alphabet earlier than me, someone who could ace tt bloody eng test higher than me, someone who was in a better school than me. every little mistake i did made me bad. i spilled water on the floor, scream. they spill syrup on the floor, ask me to go get the mop and clean it up. u dont noe im suffering, cus i dont show it. i did everything you wanted me to. go buy this, go do that. switch on the fan, turn off the lights. and when i didnt, you wouldnt want to get someone else to do it. and when im doing something, go ask me to do something else. go ask me to fetch water when im revising for a test. GO GET IT YOURSELF GODDAMNIT OR GET THAT PERSON WHOS BEEN SO MUCH BETTER THAN ME TO DO IT CUS I NOE YOU NOE THAT SHELL DO A MUCH BETTER JOB THAN ME.

im so stupid. im so stupid. im VERY stupid.

FORESAKEN

2005-01-26T03:14:00.000-08:00

i have deleted my frenster acc.

so deres no point adding me cus i dun haf one and im not planning to start a new one. stop wasting your tyme.

some people jus dun deserve tongue studs and uber chio girlfrens with thin eyebrows. die MAT.

homec. hah. my chicken is one screwed chick. but it died for me and i shld be grateful for that.

i hate p5 kids. i dun wish to elaborate.

i hate posers.
especially -

i hate mats and deir tongue studs

i hate 190

i hate getting up early in the morning

i hate my freedom or rather the lack of it

i hate having to quit taekwondo

i hate de 5dayweek shit

i hate avril, hence posers being no.2 on my list.

i hate posers

i hate posers

i hate barbie and ken and kelly and skipper and their stupid perfect world.

i hate art

i ~~hate~~ maths

i hate red

i hate gold

i hate being optimistic

i hate my life.

but i happen to like full-stops.

. . . . . . . . . .

beautiful

moshing =\ sad.

go munchies

why have you forsaken me In your eyes forsaken me In your thoughts forsaken me In your heart forsaken, me oh Trust in my self righteous suicide

how long till im my own?

2005-01-18T02:05:00.000-08:00

independence doesnt start wen eu leave home.

wani came ovr today. but to do crappy stuff.sighs*.life aint going my way

i havent finish hanis blog yet. ive just got to let teh gurl decide which blogskin she wants.

np is killing me

so is malvika....haiyoh

IM BZ-ier dearr

i come back at 8.30 almost everyday and i barely haf tyme to do homework...and i haf maths REMEDIAL. dats my 1st remedial in my life.

sad.

very sad

can young minds start soon??? i miss it terribly. i miss humairah and syikin alot. i miss de others terribly too....=(esp ..........shall not bother to elaborate

i haf np everyday and de classrooms not decorated yet
BAH

i wanna win de CNY deco sooo badly

die shamita. DIE

pple die for the country. you will die for me.....OK?????*smiles sweetly:)))

talkin rubbish

2005-01-04T17:56:00.000-08:00

fuck eu bastard
fuck eu

its not ure any of ure business aniwae so keep ure clean ass outta de way. i dun care of ure brother or ure wife or ure hamster or ure pet ant died in de tsunami, its still NOT URE BUSINESS U FUCKIN BASTARD. why did eu hafta sae anything? nobody told eu to lend ure ears aniwae. so y dun u jus concentrate on ure bleedin book aniwae?? bt if u rather eavesdrop, den y dun u just let de mayor of pleasantvill burn it fer eu?? u dun hafta disguise de fact tt ure actually eavesdropping eu big eavesdropper rather than reading.BASTARD.

if eu think dis is gonna form headlines bigger den sars and de tsunami dat killed ure pet ant, u tot wrong. go make a big hoohaa la and see if i care.
*points middle finger*

dere........dat felt dead good. i can go on if i want to but fer de sensitive eyes of some who cannot bear look at words like fuck or bastard, i have summarized it....special thanks to wani and niz

the fight is over.toujous in my heart..i noe NO FRENCH...

2004-12-30T01:24:00.000-08:00

grandaddy fought. he lost. and i cried the last two days for him. ive gotta learn to control.

alrite now. i reallie dun wanna tok abt it NOW. not now at least.

shall tok abt sumthng else den...

DIE AVRIL

dat felt good.

should do that agian sumtyme...prolly now..

DIE AVRIL

i found out something new about myself: I LIKE THE CHARM BRACELET JING WEN GAVE ME.....HAHAH

okae2 not so interesting larrrr..:D

schools reopening. enuff days to do countdown eh?

went to buy my lit textbook jus now.. met a nice dear sec 1 crescentian and her darlin mommy....i mite consider riting to her...hohoho...so forward thinking eh???

im GONNNA GET CHUCKS!!!!!!cheer me baby! hahaha

okay now.... wanna go run in de wind one lst tyme b4 school

play with my lil cuzzie actually..
shes COMICAL MAN!

im back and im gonna sleep all day

2004-12-20T19:32:00.000-08:00

right.

ROD nites over.yayy

im dead tired.
we slept at 1 and woke up at 6. say wow.wow. so tt means i had five hours of sleep.
veh noisy de.
pple were yakkin abt how i was gonna steal deir chocs.
I WONT
i tot i made it clear i was on a chocolate diet?
fine.
and dun take advantage of dis by waving a bar of violet crumble infrnt of me
it would NOT work.
im somebody who sticks to what i say...
hos

niwae,
i liked de bbq.
felt like we really bonded with the maams and squaddies.
syira, me and farz tried to get the fire goin
theresa helped.
correction: theresa helped ALOT
recorrection: theresa helped out TOO MUCH
we got a fire starting. a very BEEG one. TOO beeg. dat was the prob.
and we tot it was good, really good until SOMEBODY (ahems) threw in de solid fuels
so mandeemam came along and cried in shock as she watched her deardear marshmallow being roasted by poisonous gas. and later migrated to another pit.haha
in de end. mam lim and mam rina helped us cook de chicken wings with a toaster and oven...hoho. half-cooked actually

de performance was okay. read sumone elses blog to find out abt it. i do NOT wish to say anything.

yup. and DEY CANCELLED SENTRY DUTY AND PT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WHOOTS!!!!!!!!!

i wanT PuNk MEow DeXtEr

2004-12-19T01:51:00.000-08:00

i hate my life

have i told you dat before???

no wait

i hate my life. NOW

haf a camp tmr...
not too psyched up abt it cus well b performin
n prolly half de squad dunno wads goin on
so de other half, or say , quarter, worked our butts off to get it finalised
but fortunately, our butts are still intact. and dats gd to noe.
cus we havent evn finalised our costumes yet
and i havent evn bought prezzies yet
so now dat u noe how HARD ive worked to cum dis far...
applaud me
thank you

went to theresas place illegally yest...had a blast

the exercise room is beeg.
u can practically spoil ure eardrums wen sumbodie screams
lotsa nice echoes
i didn mention it was old
so now i will
its old
but i like it
and nobody can change dat

god played with the rain switch cus it was drizzling on and off

was kinda hungree
of cus i was
i ate a granola bar 4 breakfast
key word: a
so i stuffed myself with fun choy and a spicy gingerbread man and mango slush
haha
it didn fill me up tho
haha

rehearsals went well
jing wen had a blardey headache
UNEXCUSABLE
hohs
i thought we did okay
other than my rapping which sucked ultimately.
haha
i dunno wad to wear tmr
really. i dunt

after rehearsals, went to de hospital.
i didn go up. bought a big gulp. ( its confirmed-im a ICELEMONTEA-AHOLIC now...i jus need some more holics and we can form a union. anybody interested?)
and i dun wish to elaborate

after dat went looking around for toilet seats
i still dun wish to elaborate

and makaned

and makaned

and makaned

ryte

i shall end off with saying that my blogg rox my stinky sox and do NOT approach me if u haf a problem with it.

cyas

2004-12-15T23:38:00.000-08:00

yaye...i got bac my tablet....FINALLY....hahx..
dad confiscated it and mum gave it bac to me after MUCH pleading and TONS of favours.
hohs.

both grandpa n great grandma in de hospital. go visit grandpa everyday jus to see if he's okay. but i dont mind. i love my grandpa. i want him to get out of tt fucking hospital asap. im crying everytyme i see him. im sooo hapiee dat hes been transferred outta icu...hes now in high dependency ward. but dats kinda scary too cus deres so many gadgets arnd its hard to go near him. i hate crying. dats y i dun see him often. i jus sit outside telling myself hell be okay and i noe it. my mom and bros went to nuh to see my gr8 grandma...hope shes doin okae...the docs sae shes in critical condition. gawd..hope shell survive...shes 90 i think...woww...i love her.

mom bought me step ahead 3 normal technical....yaye...im DAT stupid...hello?

young minds is done with...will be continuing nxt yr i heard..dunno de...i blew it again...haha love xinmin ppl....dead farnie..was laffin my head off with demm..right hanie?? *nudges...hohs...toook more neos with irah and shikin and hanie again...felt like running after him...gawd..im sick.

nabil is one adorable kid...haha

rod cumin near and we still haven got everything planned yet...big wows...

im signing off here with a new song..not really new larr...found it in my junk and found out it was frm P5 not bad de...hahs. tho i cant really decide on the title...itll either be no home no life ni identity or finding home and myself..u decide...:) deres no prechorus either sry to say...hahx

here it is:
de doors are still open
waiting for something to happen
and i stand here knowin
it aint cumin anytime soon
and know all i want
is for all of it to come bac (come bac to me)
and 2 erase wads done
and 2 start all over again

chorus:
i want to go back
but homes so far away( far away)
i want to turn bac
but all i see is darkness
and ahead deres still no light
nothin to lead me on with life

so everydays de same
stupid mistakes i made yesterday
and repeated dem today
life aint gonna change
at least not now (not today)
but im all to blame
ive driven myself to shame
i still stand alone (still cant find home)
(chorus)

on with life....yeahyeah
doesnt anybody know?
i haven seen myself in quite awhile?
ive got tons of mirrors but i still cant find me......
at all...mmm mmm(chorus2x)

gd dayy:)

2004-11-29T01:45:00.000-08:00

yaye jus came back frm cultural nite.:)

sucked larr. primary school waddya xpect? onlie liked the fusion dance cus all de kids were soo cute..hehh.

had young minds earlier. all the acsi ppl didn cum, and so hanie noticed. he didn cum either...aww...sad. was lookin forward to tt.haha..nut.was fun met new ppl.yaye..like this guyy ami (army [pun intended]) ahah ...hes nice larr...funneh..he called poor hanie a guyy fer gawds sake, and said she looked more innocent den mee...hello?? jus cus i hav on my stud belt and wrist band and dwncast eyes does NOT make me less innocent den dear haniiiee...aiyoo.idiot.haha. hmm lutfi lookalike.sweet.ahhaa...veh sweet....cute lil akim in my grp..cute lil nabil hangs out with the rgs ppl. cute lil girl in tudung. really cute very cute. n my cute big facilitator too cute..haha im SO obsesses with cute right now.

Toujou frais, toujou francais

2004-11-25T19:42:00.000-08:00

hello hello...

haha haven been blogging for awhile cus been pretty busy. so manie things have been happenin yea.

grandads in the hospital. hes gonna get transferred to icu soon if dey haf a space fer him aniwae. visitd him yest and gd thing he looked pretty well...thank gdness.

stuffed myself subconsiously with delifrance. bro was trying so hard to learn french thru de tray paper ad...hoho...dead comical mann....pan, bon appetit, a la carte, boulangerie...hahha!!!

a band? a band!ummmm yahh...tokin to marianie abt it.... zaks seems reallie psyched but i dunno larr..warren??? umm....yaniee wans a female vocalist....yeah. so dunno larr. shall get together on msn and see..haha um in teh meantym...we jus make noise 1st until we find a gr8 vocalist larr..hoho. noww in a rush to find a jamming room with NO see-thru walls, SOUNDPROOF, provided instruments and o cus huge spaces....hurhur...so fussy. the basic contradiction

ana got 253/263...ooo..smarty pants in the familee ehh??hoho...somebody took my title.... wonder whos next?

ive been hopelessly addicted to quizzes....haha y'all take my quiz k? and fer those who have ryt, thx lots..haha pretty give away questions larr..hoho yupp go take ok??;)

BOO!

2004-11-13T04:37:00.000-08:00

bubbye ramadhan helllooooooooooo HARI RAYA AND ALOTLOTLOTLOT OF MONEYYYYY!! whoot with me ppl..hoho....i cant believe i actually completed 30 days of puase...like, WOW. 30. a big fat number. i kinda like 10 beta budden noeing t mummy watches every step i take and every move i make i wldnt dare

omost fainted during np..oh shitt IM SO WEAK....darn it. oh gawd. why i ma such and idiot?! can i get anie weaker...? how manie tyms mus i fall out jus to satisfy myself?? i hate my bloody migrain which totally caused me to go giddy. LIKE, HELLO? i was giddy! idiot, fucker, bitch, sucker, bastard.....im callin myself names. im good at it... im a stupid WEAK idiot. FREAK! *pulls hair out.

if anie of my squadmates who have helped me are reading this, this is all i hafta say:
I LOVE YOU ALL LOADS! Thanx a billion for being sweet darlinkks who neva left my side until ma'ams told yea to. i feel gr8 noein tt i haf 12 ppl who care abt me loads... thx theresa 4 lettin me hugg yea like my pink ppg pillowww and thx de rest for standin by me and helped me get thru tt 5 mins. i love you loads and i wanna u to noe tt k? MUAX! IFFAH LURVESS HER SQUADDIESS TO THE CORE!!!

ummm yahh not ta ferget the maams ....:D THX MAAMS!!! whoots..maams rule the world...thx lots for makin ure hands tired fer keepin me alive...thanksthanksthanks ALOTLOTLOTLOTLOT! haha...

syira, niz, theresa, nifong, jiat ru n me stayed bac fer a while to discuss rod...and i think we did pretty well. had a couple of good ideas laa..we ended up blowin bubbles...hurhur...we had funn budden we got shooed away by mandeemaam afterwards...hoho....proud. and syira n i screamed our lungs out singin accidentally in love and twinkle2 lil starrr....haha

next week is muster parade..gawd, UNNERVING! BUT YAYE! well be gettin our rankss le...haaha...np made me one hapie womann hoho

cant wait for rod de haha...so funn..well be stayin ovr nite in sch again. the sec 3s proly have done it a gazillion tyms la...but heyy, we're onlie sec ones wadd..hah

shall pen off here denn need to adjust my linkks...hahaa

Your mysterious..... Like you have a secret but,
everyone has secrets that they don't want
anyone to know. So don't be ashamed if you
think you weird but, your not. It's cool being
mysterious like you might have cool
techniques:)

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im lookingg forr moreee

2004-11-09T20:31:00.000-08:00

anibodie thinx the windows here are too small say aye! AYE AYE AYE!!! aiyohhh....so small so had to scroolll tsktsk nvm its okae anw

ok yapp...im doin okae dis few daes..hoho omgosh....4 more daes. yaye...den ill be wearing dat silver thingy dey call a baju kurong..yupp...and ill be 200 bux richer..yaye

i made a huge mistake following mummy to geylangg...shitt...i was lucky not to have sore eys de nxt day cus den ill fail de maths paper..sighs

I WROTE 2 neww songss..! YIPEE! de guy who im spsed to be learning drums frm keeps botherin yanie..hoho...sryla...mayb after hari raya..i mean, learn drums? NOW? i do wanna learn, unless o cus de sch doesnt haf a jammin room...where the hell are we gonna jamm?? sighs...we still need a vocalist, keyboardist and another guitarist...like durh.. like we can start a ska band with 2 ppl liddat and a manager(nadiah hoho)... auditions?

siti came ovr on mon..hoho..we slacked until abt 6 o'clock..den she went home..were listenin to jojo's buffering baby its you..yes... we were gd angels surprisingly..took a neoprint with her on fri after maths..like xiao idiots liddat..hoho

oh wells, shall songg: *sweet smile*

I've found out...
I'm not spsed tobe like this
Ive found out...
I'm jus too crazey
And I'm outta control, outta my head
somehoww it jus seems better when im alone
den wen im at home
and mommys screamin into my ear
daddys checkin out my nannys rear
and im jus sittin dere
lookin like i dun care if de world cums to and end

chorus:
sometimes its hard
i noe, to be what you wanna be
but ure bein pushed dwn by so many
u wanna give up n leave
but ive found a way
to say what you wanna sae

i might nvr get rich
i dunno who ill grow up to b
right now im tempted to be what i can nvr b
im lookin at myself, xpecting to c someone els
everyones changin but i still remain as me
i need someone. i need myself

[chorus]]

i wanna be independent.
i wanna be me
i wanna be in CONTROL

and sometimes its hard
i noe, to hold ure head high
wen all u see is the ground
u wanna get up and leave
but ive found a way
to say what you wanna say....

[chorus till end]]

broken inside

2004-11-07T20:48:00.000-08:00

Its hard to let go
To unlock the door and let my spirits free
So away from me
Not coming back and turnin round
Cus i never wanted you in the first place
And i didnt ask for you to take over with your ways
and it hurts to know
tt we shared nothing anymore

So long, baby.
Need not help me pick myself up, honey.
Cos you've lost the pieces of me
I dont know what to do to set myself free
Just leave and let it be.

[cho.rus]
Well, thanks, thanks for leavin me alone
thanks a million for destroying home
Thank you so much for all u caused
now cant we go back to where it was
Jus u and me.....
where nothing seemed wrong
and wen waitin for yea was never long
didnt noe ure love was such a lie
so un-predictable
Was unpredictable....

verse 2:

i never knew wad was on yea mind
cus u nvr looked into my eyes
wad cld i see it nvr came outta u
and wad was brought out was never wad i wanted it to be
and i think i just caught you in the art of watching me watch you
But some other days i sit here
facing the fact that you didnt realize i exist.

wad i wanted it to be
there was nvr u and me
and i hate noeing life sucks
but u didnt help me outta dis muck
all u did was stand dere looking at me..yeah yeah

[cho.rus]
Well, thanks, thanks for leavin me alone
thanks a million for destroying home
Thank you so much for the chaos tt u caused
now cant we go back to where it was
Jus u and me
where nothing seemed wrong
and wen waitin for yea was never long
didnt noe ure love was such a lie
so un-predictable
Was unpredictable....

So long, baby.
Need not help me pick myself up, honey.
Cos you've lost the pieces of me
I dont know what to do to set myself free
Just leave and let it be.

[cho.rus]
Well, thanks, thanks for leavin me alone
thanks a million for destroying home
Thank you so much for the chaos tt u caused
now cant we go back to where it was
Jus u and me
where nothing seemed wrong
and wen waitin for yea was never long
didnt noe ure love was such a lie
so un-predictable
Was unpredictable....

huhh....

2004-11-04T04:14:00.000-08:00

went to geylangg and bugis with zOOra n yaniee..hehh..got totallly drenched in de rain and we werent sexy haha..

i wld specially like to thank my jeans for slipping off my ass evry second or two and makin me ttly mbarassed infrnt of de mats and minahs..thx pants..ill wear you again when i grow fat..

waited for azoora for prolly half hour...haha....n got publicly mbarassed...realie...i love de guyy at de counter for pronouncing my name correctly and let the entire MRt station what a bee-YOO-tiful nameee....i love you guyy..note the sarcasm pls

saw wanie dere...hurhur...had lotsa bajus in her hand...cldnt see her face..woww..mus be loaded in her cupboard poor thing she prolly cant evn find her underwear..haha

got realie drenched wen hailing for a taxee....yaye..de driver kept babblin on n on...hey driver, if ure reading dis, de nxt tym i get on ure bloody taxi i want cha to shut up i dun need animore crap den i have already gotten. i dun need u to butt in and make me sigh n jus manage to give yea a thankss...aiyoh...shut up b4 i roll out of de taxi n get sent to de hospital...*shakkes head

went to bugis afterwards...zoora frantically searching for slippers dere..haha..in de end took some retarded neoprints...aww..but sweetla shall keep it as a memo wen she goes but by den wld haf taken a loottttt more..hehh...bot aqualip pens..nice pinkk...omgosh.. can u believe it?? PINKK..hehh....liked the black one yaniee bot. she shld haf bot a red one too tho...oh well

F:

Your Beauty lies
in Contradiction. Controversial, unpredictable, and
never what anyone expects.
You appearance and your personality are two
opposite things. Even your
appearance sends different signals to different
people. To some you may look
innocent and sweet, to others you look mysterious
and intimidating at the same
time. No one ever knows what to expect with you.
You are a little bit of
everything all mixed together. You can be watching
the football game with the
guys one minute and the next out shopping at the
mall. You seem to be almost a
different person every time you meet someone, but
at the same time you know
exactly who you are and there is always that one
thing that makes you you. You
enjoy keeping people guessing and people love how
completely unpredictable you
are.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Fire, Water Animal: Chameleon Color:
Dark Tones, Light
Tones Song: Everything by Alanis Morriesette
Expression:
Half-smile

Gemstone:
Opal Mythological Creature: Gryphon,
Half-breeds Sign:
Gemini Planet: Mars Hair Color: Red
Eye Color:
Brown

Quote:
"Appearances can be deceiving."

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yaye!!! Its THE HOLIDAES!!

2004-10-30T22:53:00.000-07:00

haha..FINALLY...seemed like a million years to get here..wahaha..im rejoicing la...feels like onlie yest wen we were innocent sec ones with shirts still tugged in and bambi eyes to get wad we want...*sighs* i sound do old...heyy im gonna be 14 next year o course im old la.. awww...
my stomachs getting teh worse of me noww...16th day into puasa n i cant take it..tsktsk..i shld be ashamed of myself

oh yahh,, SPY M, if ure readin dis, geylangs on thurs..okae? well b goin ourself..mommy not cumin... and try not to spen ALL of dat 100 bux..haha

omgodd, yu ting left already..azuras next..im gonna cry my hearts out..i love her lots..bye azura..i want u to rmb me at dubai ks? rmb dat i loved yea loads n we shared many happy tyms k? chat with me evry tym im on msn n ill neva ferget you..i dun wanna be fergetton n erased from yea mind cus I LOVE YOU!!! il try to think of yea evry nite b4 i sleep cus ure worth tinkin abt and ill try to rmb yea all de way cus ure worth rmbing..i love YOU!!! muax!

ok...shitt, im crying alreadi n shes not evn gone yet..WAAAAA!!! ahh...*wipes tears..
stupid emtional freak...sighs...got no mood to blogg..am off to millsberry land...

Graduation (Friends Forever) by Vitamin C

And so we talked all night about the rest of our livesWhere we're gonna be when we turn 25I keep thinking times will never changeKeep on thinking things will always be the sameBut when we leave this year we won't be coming backNo more hanging out cause we're on a different trackAnd if you got something that you need to sayYou better say it right now cause you don't have another dayCause we're moving on and we can't slow downThese memories are playing like a film without soundAnd I keep thinking of that night in June I didn't know much of loveBut it came too soonAnd there was me and youAnd we got so blueStay at home talking on the telephoneWe'd get so excited, we'd get so scaredLaughing at ourselves thinking life's not fairAnd this is how it feels[1] - As we go onWe rememberAll the times weHad togetherAnd as our lives changeCome whateverWe will still beFriends ForeverSo if we get the big jobsAnd we make the big moneyWhen we look back nowWill our jokes still be funny?Will we still remember everything we learned in school?Still be trying to break every single ruleWill little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbyeKeep on thinking it's a time to flyAnd this is how it feels[Repeat 1]La, la, la, la:Yeah, yeah, yeahLa, la, la, la:We will still be friends foreverWill we think about tomorrow like we think about now?Can we survive it out there?Can we make it somehow?I guess I thought that this would never endAnd suddenly it's like we're women and menWill the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?Will these memories fade when I leave this townI keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbyeKeep on thinking it's a time to fly[Repeat 1 (3x)]

2004-10-24T00:11:00.000-07:00

hahahhahahaha...*falls off the chair

2004-10-23T23:59:00.001-07:00

hahahahahhahahahahahhahaahha

2004-10-23T23:59:00.000-07:00

hahahaha

2004-10-23T23:58:00.000-07:00

dis is wayy funny..haha

home..de best place ta be..other than town o'course

2004-10-23T23:29:00.000-07:00

i shall not be obsessed with tsunami bomb... i shall not be obsessed with tsunami bomb....*looong silence* TSUNAMI BOMBB ROXX!!!!!! oh wells..i cant help it..
anw... found out tt deres connection in mommys room...wahaha...moms shooin me out but im still stickin to the chair...
oh yeah.. drama thingy tomorrow..cant wait..*rubs hands..
wonder watll bcome of me
hahh..im actin as anna...de bitch who gets turned into lindsay lohan...wahh..
haha..actually lindys chio but jojos chio-ER..yaye..jojo rox..
hehh...im tinkin of btc noww...not gd...
SNAP outta of it iffah!

dis shld be my shoortest post eva..haha...shall sign off with my fav songg...:D

LEMONADE by Tsunami Bomb
Thanks! Thanks for nothing
I've taken all you got and started walking,
Not broken, still standing,
Been ripped apart, but now I'm demanding

Looking at you now, remember how you gave me shit,
And I made lemonade out of it
Pass me the sugar and things still won't be right!
Look what you've built, now are you proud of your deceitful quilt
Well I won't cover myself in it, the warmth has just been choking me!

Thanks! Thanks for nothing
I've taken all you got and started walking,
Not broken, still standing,
Been ripped apart, but now I'm demanding
No more shit, this is it
I am leaving for myself and no one else
So long, been swell, see you in hell!

What would you say? Can't hear
you buried in the lies that you've laid.
I'm breaking myself away from that chain, to bad you don't understand why
I'm walking away, and if you're lucky then someday I may
Possibly forgive you for all of it.
But not today, BUT NOT TODAY!

oh yeah..a few funny pics..ahahh..have a gd laff ppl...PEACE OUT

dis thing jus screams "read me"

2004-10-20T05:03:00.000-07:00

yaye.. im FINALLY blogging after lightyears..okae...update...
i got my results baccc.....and i failed maths...woww...HUGE surprise...
actually didn sit 4 paperla....haha...gd excuse 4 tan not to come after me
uh-huh. heh..found out tan lives in bukit panjangg.. all together noww *gasps
haha.. wanie told me after she saw the DOVE-devotee in the 75 bus b4 sch..haha
realie. no wonder she nvr runs out of her hang ten plastic baggs. hang ten actually lets her hang
out dere....shes plain lucky she didn get thrown out...i am one big meaniela...and am proud of it *smirx
niwaee, didn realie njoy post xams activities...lyk we had soo much fun i cant contain dis excitement anie longerr...
yaniee, thanx alotlotlot..haha...shall think abt it..sighs...nvr tot as myself as a drummerr...a drummer eh? dunnola...de keyboard roxx....rawk on azura...and if u cant make it...deres alwaez de sax..will look kinda distorted in a ska band la...haha..but its sexy k? haha.. yanie, dun stop lookin 4 dat electric bass guyy..i noe ull find himm..ill help u la...and 2 our dear manager nadiahh...heh..sry dat u cant make it as vocals.. realie sry...go corrode duncans ears instd k? jus stick to managing..haha...

ramadhan has started and im bitchin abt ppl...hahh

IVE CHANGED BLOGSKIN!!! 4 dose who are blind enuff not to realise dat already...and my taggies fixed!!! WHOOTS! YOU CAN SEE WHATRE YOU TYPINGG!!!

Emil, sry dat i didnt giv yea anythin 4 yea burfdae yes??*sobs feel so bad la sry dear..wahaha
and sharifa...sooooo sryy dat i replied soo late and almost made yea rot waiting fro my letter...
sryyyy...!

my parents are off to terawih....have the house to myself..wait..i cant rejoice yet..my bro and nyai with me here..awww...

gettin results tmr...*groan...bubbye ppl
dis might be my last blog entry so y'all better njoy it...frm tmr onwards ill be dead and buried six feet under....

so ill write a testi abt life here....:

i njoyed life...alot..lots of ups and dwns but i loved i.. i managed to enjoy every minute of life by smiling every moment and onlie crying wen i need to.. altho sumtyms i let those tears fall impulsively, i always think back and den realise how stupid i was.. i den smile again and feel beta...make smilin ure no. 1 priority cus deres alwaes sumthn to smile abt.. whether u managed ta grab dat last quiksilver bag onot..u gotta SMILE!!! yaye..shall sign off here with teh quiz dat i took...haha..pretty cute la..:

You're a girl power mommy! You love to be girly,
but you're no pushover. Your kids are learning
that gender differences don't have to mean
gender inequality. You've taken back pink, and
you don't care who knows it!

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sing with me: OH HALLELUJAH!!!

2004-10-07T19:11:00.000-07:00

im still wondering what im doing blogging when i haf to finish up my art (coralllls) and study maths (f' off tan). not tt i care anw.. fine, i suck at maths... dere i said it and am proud of it wahaha...niwae, nothin new. huiqin and zakk came ovr jus now...was spsed to be searching for pics. but ended up doing what??? haahh. was surfing udder stuff...both veryyy hyperrr..omtian mite as well haf brot home 2 monkeys..but sad, no time to go to the zoo...oh wells, screw me..streaked huiqins hair...-massages tummy- laffed to hard...

i am sooo psyched..exams are ending! yayy..and my tablets wurking...YAYY! wahaha...and im NOT STUDYING!! *does a single person wave*

oh..i owe sharifa a letter...wahah..sry dear. if youre reading dis, im realie sry..owe you big time for bein so patient... and its not okay and dun sae nvm..cus IT IS NOT OKAY.. dis is big stuff..cld be sinful too y'noe..I OWE YOU A LETTER..

but yet, i feel comforted...why? evelyn and wani owe ME a letter..whahaha...upstairs and dwnstairs! DEN GO GET IT!!! -smacks head in frustration-dunno y i bother riting to dis ppl wen i always haf de tot dayre an arms length away frm me

shall sign off with 4 words: I..HATE..MY..HAIR

hallelujah

2004-10-06T06:14:00.000-07:00

whoots!
ahaah..i can finally blog! OH LOOK IM TYPING!! haha...my pcs been dwn 4 de couple of daes so i cant blogg..sighs...but heyy, im bac...! fine...had geog and homes jus now...i cant say anythin y'noe. all i can manage now is a fuck to de setters....and maria tan came in with more maths notes...the dove never gives up...she nvr does. but i tink she gave up on me already.. haven been chasin me for homework so far...haha...and dats not because i have been handing in work, cus i havent. yup..admit it tan: I WIN THE GAME. i dunno y she still bother wit ppl lyk me cus its no use aniwae. ill just turn my bac on dem n point the finger b4 strutting off to some place where i wont be bothered abt hw...

samat gave me an honour stamp..omgod... i do NOT believe that crap..he oso told me to meet him after exams. shall dragg siti along...*evil grin*...surely crezcurlyqueen wants to hear...hha

oh yea, i shaved my head and i look lyk an idiot...sighs...f' de idiot who invented teh scissors...wish could stuff it up his a--.

been too vulgar dese few daes.i hate myself for trying what i noe never could be done and never will be accomplished. i cant be what i want to be cus i have tots dat are not meant to be in me . i dunno wad to do if dere is no guidance...so far ive not been alone cus i noe God has always been dere for me. But ive been abusing dis by lying. ive committed g8 sins tt no one noes abt and im not gonna tell anyone. let me suffer knowing dat ive been a bad gurl and playing with things dat arent to be meddled with..

sign off

its exams...no, im not kiddin

2004-09-28T22:11:00.000-07:00

28/09/04
ITS BEEN CONFIRMED, XIU YING IS GONNA REPLACE ME IN THE VERTICAL CHALLENGE THINGY…
Haha..wrote that in CAPS LOCK jus in case anibodies blind enough not to notice that thing…haha..and ni fong, dis is for your own sake, jus in case mandee thinks that youre replacing me…(roll eyes..not as if shes gonna read my bloggie anw..wait.. MA’AM?? ARE YOU READING THIS???!)

my connection on my tablets been goin on and off so cant go online…sad case huh??

Im actually fasting today..haha,,need 5 more days..whatever…fasting tml too… zakk and siti are spsed to puasa with me, but, oh wells, *shrugs

Had the CME test todae…I’ll kill myself if I fail…its totally CS (borrowed expression from darlinkk Ms Azinar)…haha..was soo tempted to write all the things I realie wanna do…e.g: If your neighbour was blaring music and you coudnt concentrate on your studies, what would you do???

And I stupidly answered, “explain to them that I was studying and politlely tell them to lower down the volume….so not me…
The real me would have anwered: I’d slam my books down and storm off to their door and knock it till it goes crumbling down infront of me. I’ll den give dem hell by telling them to f’ off and get a life cus deyre ruining mine by preventing me from studying at aceing that science test tmr. If dats not enough, Ill blast MY radio in the middle of the night while the b*s*a*ds are sleepin and let dem taste the shitt they gave me…*smiles sweetly* give me full marks kae miss pham???

Yaya…like I don’t have enuff shitt in my life already..watdahell

Im signing off here.i cant take dis crap anymore…

wad am i doing alive?

2004-09-26T16:07:00.000-07:00

Hello again..yahahh..just finish riting testimonial fro thayamummy..yuppie..i missed lotsa stuff this week. Ive got ALOTLOTLoT to catch up on and I missed young minds..i wanna see u so badly..waa.a…and yayy, im turning str8..applaud la…haha..thx to the guy, my world turning the rite way again, dis time its just inside out…it flips to see u it turns my heart inside out and upside down. It makes me sand wonder if im sick it makes me wanna fall down on my knees and beg you not to be so cruel to me. I noe tt im against ure kind. But y did you have to be so sweet and pour all your sugar and turn into caramel into my heart? Please, don leave me alone cus I wanna thank you . I thank you for all the things you have thrashed out of me. O myself again. All the toxics been flushed out. Im turning to the idiot that I was before. Thx for everything. Thx for being sweet and making me go weak. Thank you.

Okae, okae, focus already..back to tkd…
theresas been teaching me like xiao and I stil dun get it..hah..i owe big tima and 2 bux,,,oh wells, hope shell lat me off on the hamburger,,haha,fat hope tho.,.yep… okaela..im bored dun feel like blogging todae… bubbyes

my life on 230904

2004-09-23T18:00:00.000-07:00

Life is too frusrrating right now. Jus came bac from zakks place and ‘rents gave me hell. Weel, not both of the m la. Onlie the bigger half who thinks hes sooo big he can play with my feelings. T_T. yay. Im banned frm goin to anibodie’s hse now…whee. So are my bros. haha..im so good at getting mybros into my pissa shitte. Yah.. was studying at zakks place. Can u believe tt? Hello? Studying..aiyo. her moms nice and we made a hell of noise..dun tink she approves of it..shakkes head.. nvm..her bro soo roxx..eek.can be irritating tho. *roll eyes. Heyy, I went to school wth huiqin dis morning..whee! she didn’t kol me shafinaz..yay! keep it up huiqin! Den almost late for school. Yupp. Had mass run den had maths test. Aiyo..i lost 4 marks already. I cant afford to fail this okae? Ive been studying ridiculously. So, mom, its not my fault if it did badly for final yr.its jus my brain fault..hahah…niwae I managed to complete the malay homework on time liao. *applauds and takes a bow*. Was slacking with siti at pei chuns place, blog-hopping. No music.. she was writing to syahirah and I was quietly minding my own business. Yeppyepp…haf nothing better to do…went searching for miss_toiletbowls skins..aargh!! so nice…she 13 n in cedar..wthell..i so worship her ks? Im gonna download/muatturunkan her angel devil sin..zakkiya, LAY OFF!!! Hahahh…went home straight from school. Shldnt have lent siti so much money. Now im bankrupt..all her fees are sooo expensive!! Aargh!!!! *pulls hair out*….stupidstupid.stupid! but its all in tha name of telling zakk the simple truth anw… got a bit of misunderstanding I think ..yah. fixed it ryt away and I cried again…stupid…shldnt haf sat dere alone and staing off to outer space..stupidstupid….seela, been hanging out too much with siti and zakk… caought zakks disease with callin me stupid..how idiotic… ya..kemas-ed zakks desk..yayy..so neat now..but count on her to dump everything to bac it was in 2 hrs. yeppie and den read her compo during p6..haha..so farnie…. Den studied b4 helping fahims frn solve a couple of math probs..tt was funn..realie..shes sooo nice le..eunice? yunis?? Yoonis? Yuneez? Dunnola..something lyk tt. Zakk was ratting on and on and on abt payalebar Methodist being such a les sch…wahaha…*grinx*hehe..lyk were not liddat..wahaha.. and fahim (is tt how u spell his name??) was arguing abt the fact tt crez ahs lotsa crooks. Whatever ..talk t te hands. we were promoting the tablet to eunice (ill settle for dis one den)…and CREZNPCC!!! Yayy.haha..creznprawkz4eva…lolx. love creznp rawkz..which reminds me, ive got a testimonial to write..haha…

lfe suxxx....*blows bangss

2004-09-09T08:28:00.000-07:00

Eek. I cant blog n my life still suxx. Am being kiasu ryt now.. *beams* haha..bot hari raya stuff…so…my dear niz, YOURE NOT ALONE!!! Haha..:D…I haven finsihed my hw yet..and moms not screaming. I cant wait till sch reopens…wanna see all my fwens again..love them…*hugx*n dun myn wei meng..aahaah…shes keeyoowt.haha..curse me all u want ppl, ill jus curse you bac..*shrugs*
*scrunches nose* not baddd,,, np tml…can wait tho. Ryt now not so psyched abt np as b4… I dunno tho. I realie wanna b as excited as b4 but I cant. They make me so dead, deyre practically digging me grave and opening the gate of heaven for me. Nvm… I dun wanna tok abt dem…
Sighs. I currently haf no life watching t..he apprentice.. I haf not an inkling wad deyre tokin abt…intro abt demselfs… I can do tt too yea noe: “hi im iffah im 13 and currently haf NO LIFE!!!” see how good I am at self intros??? *smirx
Yanieeee, youre luckie tt dis entry not tt depressing…haah. Love uea loads and am missing you along wif evribodie els…yuppp…*more scrunching of nose and a grinnn* haha..am makin did lyk a taggie…anw, MY TAGGIES FIXED!!! Whoots *jabs at taggie

Okae..gonna end hereeee signing off wif this words

You are a jerk, freak of nature, fcuker, idiot, shithead, virus takin ovr my head, ruining my life and everything tt I hate…u dun haf to make my life worse… now lemme show you the way out…

,,,

2004-09-08T20:39:00.000-07:00

you didnt have to sufer coz i took ovr ure suffering inside....
you didnt haf to scream cuz my vocal chords are now sore bcuz of you
you didnt haf to cry cus my eyes are already dry
you didnt haf to smile cus my face muscles are aching
you didnt haf to run away from me cus im leading the race

my life's bedsheets are unmade now...dont mess them up animore

2004-09-07T07:43:00.000-07:00

watching bachelorette now..eek..chiobu hunting for a man...shes so chio, she cant afford to be despo..aighaigh...should haf called de show despo'rette...:P...
i am so screwed rite now...eek...

okae, dun want to tok abt IT now...ill go crazy and end up in the hospital tonite..screamin for the whole of S'pore to hear...

change subject...
wellys burfdae:hehe..todae...
HAPIE BURFDAE WELLYYYY!!! love yea...and will ankle sox do??? * waves sox infrnt of welly's face
love yea loads kae? *squeeze hands...
sry dear, couldnt get SB..haha...pretty short of money rite now.. *opens wallet and lets dust fall out...:)

ummmm....whos burfdae next???
ooooo...my brudder's. how can i forget..uhhh...*counts fingers*
18 more days..yepppp....

kalok my dear..tagg my blog ks???wanna noe ure burfdae....*points to taggbord...

haiz...still haven finish writing to sharifa yet...waiting for emil's, aisyah's,xiao yuan ma;ams and eve's letas...yuppp...

i hate her for coming into my life NOW and creating havoc...she had to come NOW...she had to pop into my head NOW...she had to make me so stressed NOW...she had to confuse me NOW...i hate her...I HATE HER YOU HEAR ME PPL?????!!!!!!!! I HATE HER!!!!! wait...i dont... im crazy...im falling...im confused..im hurt..im depressed..im everything!!!

you are one hell of a person burning my heart

2004-09-05T01:26:00.000-07:00

shamita noes.

atiqah noes.

hanisah noes

zakkiyya noes

i think siti noes

who else?eek.

my life is so freaking me out rite now

i dun need animore ppl up my head den there already is.

den 2 more sum along..one new and one relieving old memories..

cat dey tell dat i haf no more brain capacity?

why do i hafta be what i am???????

why do i hafta be so confused?????

cant someone help me??

God helped me alot but i just owe him too much tt i cant ask for more.

so now im officially alone

denying de fact tt i already am what i dint want to be.

why cant i jus turn bac tym and not do what i did to end up here???

sighsigh

i noe im not alone...

ive got my frens to rely on..

my world..

i love all of them..

listen to me my dears...i love you!

IloveYou

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

thx for hearing me out.

thx for consoling me

thx for being there for me

thx for loving me

thx for everything..

see? if ure good to me see how many praises i can shower you with???

but now de probs still at large..

i now ill forget one day and look bac to thsi day and laff. i noe

aargh...!

2004-08-18T18:33:00.000-07:00

18/08/04

okiee….recap yea? Went to plaza sing again yest and saw THEM again lorh… we were wit Lydia, Pei tunn, Siti, Verna and YOURS TRULY…hehehe… b4 tt had choral reading…bleah..sux..as usual larh. Had to fold my darlin a-line skirt..wah kau so short…hate short skirts can???-erps- den evelyn told me t pigs are flying. lol. Hehe. A few ppl said very chio (riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiittttte)… *plasters sarcastic look on face and rolls eyes.
Wth can?? Eeks. And wan mei had soooper short skirt on…muahahha. So chio….hehe. budden liftedup her skirt.. tot she wearing shrts inside…woopsie…big boo boo. Hehe…den de trainer guy said our gig was okie lar…so yup..pretty hapie…*beam*

Heex..was walking arnd school wearing multi-coloured sox..haha…

We wnt to spotlite (sighx, yes, again)den bot a pathetic pipe cleaner…ughx, juz cuz atq lost one blue oen.. how pathetico… den lyd bot the banner…eeks.. 6 bux can??? –erps- so ex…

Den wnt dwn to take neoprint…ahaah…wnt to actin city firs cuz got nuthin beta to do..yep… saw door curtains..so chio but ex..whoo..our prints turned out okae lar…not bad…den wnt home. And now im sitting here infrnt of my freeking com typing dis.. sigh sigh..typical dae…

eeks...

2004-08-16T18:55:00.000-07:00

16/08/04

yep…im spsed to be studying homec now but…yea…hehe..so bad…*horns grow
screw tt anw…homec..sigh..lyk so important lyk tt lorh…eeks…ahaah..hated science todae..almost couldn’t ans all of da questions lorh..f it anw… went thru hell trying to rac my brain.. but all I could see was azinar’s face and da stoopid ohp wen I try to rmb her lessons…lol…

after sch went to bangkit with hani and nis…lol…trying to find sox for choral reading tmr…but onlie haf black and white…haiz…nvrm.. we later chabut-ed to plaza, hani gone…
SHRIEK!!! Value money open olady liao!!! Kewl yea??? Nis went crazey…hahaha..couldn’t decide wert sweet to buy liao…hehe. After tt we shot up to mini toons… see sox dere larh and den went to ice lemon TEE, flwed by blue 21 den aries..figured mini toons sols da cheapest so bot dere la…nis sponsored me 90 cents…ahaah.only brot alng 2 bux..haha…not bankrupt tho…

Met wanie and prithika on the bus ride home…dey were laffing deir heads off…haha…yarh wert..it s easy to laff you head off..jus need lota scotch tape tho..lame…

Reallie…weilings case is juz sad…kawai sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!eeeks…okie..fine, I barely noe him and he doesn’t noe im alive so yep….im so ss…haha…Im still waiting for xiao yuan ma’ams leta..stil haven reply mi yet….and is til haven reply eve and Sharifa yet…eeeks…but shar ask me to reply AFTER common tst so be it yea??? And eve’s still waiting..haha…sicko…

AIYEEEEEEEEEE!!!

2004-08-13T13:23:00.000-07:00

ehx..commmon test here liao and im bloody stressed and nobocy's halping...yea...dayre all crappin with me...but nope...100% stress stil in my head yea???erps- i cant do anytin rite now but crap...what can i do anw??? other than fail my 2.4...muahahha....samat was creaming his puny head off and i DUN EVN CARE!!! ahaha...walk and walk and walk and walk...den my 2nd one we all went crazy and sang accidentally in love.. tot lungs were gonna burst...den ended up lyk chester in somewhere i belong...so SERAk....aiyeex...hehe...in teh com lab now with zakk and siti.. zak surfing for a decent blogskin( hard to get one...hafta SEARCH your eyes off)...siti? dunno larh she... came to my house yest and we crapped a lot... pretending tt we were doing lit proj..fine.. we were but it was 90% crapping anw.. wat to do? wat to do??? haha....

actually i duno why i bother writing so much cuz there;s hardly anything going in my pathetic life of mine other than me failing ovr and ovr again...yup...engrish todae..diedie!!!aiyer...not gona fail cuz I STUDIED MY ASS OFF!!! seeko...im so gonna sue da sch if i fail yea...sighz. self-studyjuz now.. was writing to weiling about guys.. she asked what kinda guys i like...left me speechless for a while...didnt noe wat to sae...den i tot of da guys i knew.. and tot tt if i combined dem deyd be perfect lor....hehe..
den weiling showed me kenneth's pic...aiyee...HE"S SOOOOOOO CUTE!!!!! look so shocked...ahas. realie cute...so sweet.....
aiyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!shafina ma'am juz came in.......eeks...she's so CUTE!!!!lol..she is... realie.. she and becca ma'am...hehe....deya ctually smile wen you greet dem yanoe??? hehe....cutecutecute...but lyana's cuter...much cuter... she's short and cute...hehe.....postpost..nuthin to do...gotta go search for skinn....bubbyes..muakz yea...???hehe sound lyk im writin a letter...

2004-07-29T20:13:00.000-07:00

29/07/04

yep..my aun and uncle juz went home and im bleedin tired lorh..
came bac frm plaza sing at abt 6.30 and den sooooo SLEEEPYYY….*yawnz. –roll eyes- anw, earlier was da amc thingy… do I evn care if I fail da damn blasted thing?? Not counted for CA rite???harhar.. didn’t study… would it make a difference anw? I mean I NEVER study for tests, and to think tmr’s the science test. Gd rite??? Come on, sae it with me: WOW. Lol. Lame. Wow. Really tired.

Verna got me addicted to the DOLLZ thing.. herher…it was science I tink, den I was so bored so I hovered to siti’s place dere [since the curly queen didn’t cum..got competition ( “ GO NIHAAD!!!!!!” zakk shouts. Lol) GOO CREZ PADDLERS!!!]. den she lemme see her future wallpaper. De gurls dere all so chio…fine. They’re pics. How CAN dey be CHIO??? –roll eyes- but dey were! So cute summore.lol. oke…im CRAZEY… den she showed me da page where she got it all frm and d e nxt ting I knew I was ADDDICTED. Like a kid to a lollipop, like a florist to a flower, like MARY-KATE to COCAINE. Lol. Kewl… anw, screw tt. Im tokin crap..

Okie, tel you abt plaza sing liao…
Herhar…not much happening. Atq had to go to TOILET , so we did. But unfort for her, we had to leave early frm the toilet…she was so sad. Ure asking me y??
Well, whaddya tink man??? De mirrors in da toilet were lyk from ceiling to wall….lol. and da poor gurl couldn’t help but get addicted

Den we went o spotlite….crappiness..de place was bloody big… lol. We combed thru evry section.. the first section so cute.. got glaz beads or sth lyk tt. Den we went to the costumes section and atq went crazey ovr the fairy wings. Ahas….
We den saw de pipe cleaners and tot tt it was a better alternative to the oh-so-xpensive halo…[HAY-lo…not HAH-lo..goes Verna] atq went bonkers wen we saw make-up…ahas..she tot tt it might be a good idea to make the choral readers up…heex..bleah. after going through ALL de sections, we all went to buy RIBBONS…cut okies…I love ribbons. They’re so fun can??? Rox rox rox!!! Woohoo!!!

Den we went to get da stooopid table cloth and couldn’t decide wert measuremet o buy..aahhaaah…so we were standing dere lk a group of stooped housewives figuring out what kind of lunch should be packed for kids…-_-“…hehe…

Later we went to kfc to eat.. actually wanted to go 2 short jane gold long john silver..but –[toot]- was there ( this aprt has been censored for viewer’s own good..sorry for any inconveniences caused…) so we quickly rushed to kfc and den poured ovr cheese fries..ahaah…so gewd.

After tt, we went to take neoprint…ahhah…went in with pipe cleaners ppl muz haf tot we were crazey yea???
Thanx to MOI…atq and vern are officially addicted to the machine (hold the applause pls!! Oh, ure juz too kind!! Ohh..MUAK!! thank you thank you!!!) went home at abt 5.30 liao…hehe..rox.

a seriously non-updated blog entry

2004-07-06T22:08:00.002-07:00

03/07/04
( belive e date above......realy)
heey jus came bac np meeting liao...tired
2dae was seriously emotional..
cried evrytime thayamaam mentioned LAST...
wert a lame-o....pt was tiring .really. but sad .
thayamaam said tt we were not up to her xpectations.
den e had lecture...
i was e one of the ones who didnt eat breakfast.=)..borrowed 50cents frm theresa and 2 buy vegetarian pau...shouldnt be riting all tis crap cuz nobdy cares anw...
lecture had to copie some stuf abt uniform...WHATEVER....
TM spelled etiquette as etiqutte but nb tegur....jus so y'all noe rite...im riting all tis minor-minor stuff coz i wanna rmb evry ,moment of the last np meeting i had wif thayamaam kaes????so saddddd...*sobs
RT rawks can??????????
hehe, same grp as denise, amanda, jie en, andrea and durgah...grps name???DENISELAH...cute rite???hehe
zakmaam is nice and really fun...serious...SHE's FARNIE...hehe
we had to form wrds later "Dented" formed LCP, teh other grps formd CPL and SST, den our grp is SGT...kewl, huh? den i was the SGT, along wif durgah...den wen it came to our turn to check, zakmaam sprayed e water gun at my ass. MY ASS. M Y A S S. hellooo???????????i love my ass tankiew very much...ugh,,,im PROUD OF it....im evn thinking of rivalring JLO??????????den edlyn got it oso. e game tt was b4 was okaelah....deniselah didnt win but yea........

we spelled xiaolinii after ward ...KEWL!
during drills, we were hopeles at turning....sigh...CONTINUE ANOTHER DAE>>>GTG....

hey ya!! azura here destroying her blog!! she's somewhere in this room also lah but then i jst come here for fun! ahahaha! lame!!!! but yeah was she's ready with script to blog. ahahha never see this kind of case before in my live! lol! ok lah she's back laoz. so better go away or i'll be killed!! bye people!

a seriously non-updated blog entry

2004-07-06T22:08:00.001-07:00

sobzsosad

2004-07-01T01:47:00.000-07:00

Do you have to be the person I hate so much?
What are you trying to do?
Are you trying to make me so angry?
I gave it all to you.
You sold them to the garbage man for 50 cents

You were so stupid but I was 10x more to have supported you all this time
You were such an a** but I was 10x more to tag along with you.

Just shut up, zip up f’ off
For once let me hear myself think
But I can’t
You’re forcing too much stuff into my head
My brain ain’t no yellow sponge living in a pineapple under the sea
I can’t absorb all this crap

Hey you, get out of my life
I don’t need you anyway
Get off my back, you got your own
Get out of my head; I love my brain too much

Take all your knifes, screwdrivers away from my head
You caused too much brain damage
Take away all your drills and hammers from my heart
You don’t need to break it anymore

Just leave me alone
In this empty box
A weak shield from you
I know somehow you’ll jump back in

haiz

2004-07-01T01:27:00.001-07:00

hello??tmr's youh dae and evrybodie is bein soo obsessed wif clothes rite now..
me???i'll take the sch pe t shirt and skirt anidae...hehe.....yarh...flwed hani 2 buy bubble t juz now...haiyoo...so masam....but ala...one dollar wert??? duno wert to wear myself...
atq yest ask me 2 sms chan haw...lyk wth rite??not as is i noe him or anythin???crazey lovesick nut...aiyer...den she keep buggin me...lolx...

im in heaven..my mom jus brought me baked pasta......mmmmmmmmmm...anybodie jealous yet???wah kau...dead nice..

i so need a tag board and a nicer bolgskin rite now....ugh...i am soo ridiculously booring...
okae..wtvr...i gtg...

like,helllllooooo???

2004-06-29T21:50:00.000-07:00

it's like cs now...ugh..can u believe its the 3rd dae of sch olady????so dead boring, can????i have a pretty strong feeling tt e damn old virgin hates me...fark her anw. n guess wert???we r getting e tablets tmr....aagh!!those tings are so chio can????so kewl... and den juz now was startng 2 kol me mrs. ridzuan???HEELLLOOO????is she okae???? got any proof tt i like him??? crazee kiddo....tts lame. sittin wif hanie now....cute...hehe

haven post to sharifa and emil yet...hehe...emil's like so chio now can???hehe...her cuteness is gone and in e dustbin wif all her hair....sharifa??? uuh...poor ting larh....i really love those two!!! they are so sweet..! sha's bardae comin soon...dunno wert to get her leh? prob a teddy??? she loves thos rite? aiyer...i so need under mmy skin rite now. zak saez it rox ass...can believe him larh...hes got good music taste. hehe...want to go bac to sch on youth dae with atq...haiz...miss lau reina alot...suddenly so like tt. dunno y???weird...everybodie else hates her.....

yarh...treasurer poured out her heart and soul did morning...she can b a (ahemahem) but den...she can be really sensitive....i tink tt ppl shld try to look inside of her...really deep y'noe??i dunno...shes havin lots of stuf in her head rite now..so kasihan...haiz....

okaelarh..dunno wert to write...haf 2 go help iezah get a blog...(SWEET NUT THE GIRL IS..)

2004-06-23T18:57:00.000-07:00

I feel the emptiness in my heart every night and day…every hour, every minute, every second. Why does my heart melt at every mention of you? Why do you need to occupy such a large capacity in my brain until I’m stuck thinking about you every time??? Do I really want you for myself? But what do I know about you?? Nothing, nothing at all. So why does this feeling rise in me evrytime I see you?? I want you every night and can’t help but fall in love. I don’t have a cushion to break my fall and that is why I fall prey to your love. Can you get out of my head? Wait. Before you go…I have to ask myself a question. Do I really want you in my fragile heart? What if you break it?? What if you got no scotch tape to stick it back together??? Are you going to leave me for another? I saw you again and this time stronger feelings arose in me. What is wrong with me?? Do I need my brain checked and heart surgery??? Tears are too tired to fall. I don’t need to cry actually. Just that all those songs that I played are just to remind me of you. I’m trying to fall in love with you and make it seem like such a tragedy. It’s not. Do you even know my feelings for you? What do you know about me? Nothing, nothing at all. Is this really all I want to say? Do you know that I have more to say? More complications not complicated yet? More twists not twisted yet? Leave me if you want to…Goodbye

lotsa stuff happened

2004-06-23T18:25:00.000-07:00

heeeyy... alot's been happening and i havent told you any of it yet...yea...okay lets start with the start if the hols. It was teh tablet pc course...loved it cuz the instryctor really rocked roawked and hew was so farnie..hehe. couldnt help laffin my head off...den after tt was e manga courses...they were kewl....jus tt e kenneth v boring liao....he was like nlahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah...yea,lurved the 1 hr breaks tho..went to Mc..den wani went missing....hehe
DEN WAS THE COOKING COMPETITION!!!!yeah!!was assist. wit syira at pebble stepping station..not so kewl but met lotsa great ppl...the guys frm MARIS STELLA and Queenstown (i Think) ARE SO HOT CAN???????!!!!!omg...melted rite there. gess? huh. no comment...but lurved Chinese..oops, surie...THE chinese high and nanyang..so dead helpful can??yep..loved them....

a week later was so m.t....yea....cant rmb most if da events...but didnt njoy e hols tts 4 sure...ugh.....jus yest went 2 e road safety park....boring sia....
dunno wad 2 do there...jus stared at each other and we were the only sch in half-u..how maluating....